A University of Benin (UNIBEN) graduate, by name Emmanuel Oluwasayomi Ahmadu who is popularly known as Mr. Voiceover, has narrated how he survived suicide attempts after he had written the O’level examination 17 times.
According to Ahmadu, he attended 16 primary schools, took the University Matriculation Examination (UME) five times and enrolled into 14 secondary schools before gaining admission into the university.
Ahmadu who recently got an international award for student brand of the year, West Africa, organized by West Africa Citizens Award, said that he scaled through his ordeal of attempted suicide after enduring depression and hopelessness.
“I felt hopeless and desperate, with bleak pessimistic view of the future. It was such a heart-breaking experience for me to see my junior colleagues turned university graduates before my eyes and worse still, to see myself still wearing secondary school uniform and repeatedly rewriting O’level exams until the 17th time.
“All these were happening to me as a result of family crisis, and along the line, I became an orphan. I was haunted continually with low self-esteem and feelings of worthlessness. I am today thankful to God that I did not succumb to the pressures to end my life.
“I am being celebrated today. Surviving a suicide attempt maybe seemingly impossible to victims, I however survived suicide thoughts by distancing myself and shifting attention away from the negative thoughts that could lead to a more devastating situation.
“I tried as much as possible to surround myself with people who care about me and let them know what I was going through. And I often remind myself that recovery is possible, especially from the numerous setbacks,” he stated.